INTERNAL experience : )

This year has gone-rather has blown away-so fast, that before I could digest one piece of reality check, other things overcrowd-and in turn congest my thinking space….thats one thing I didn’t have this year-enough time to think over my actions. Well, I can give a valid excuse for that, but, I believe in one simple line-theres nothing like ‘there’s not enough time’ when you really are earnest in what you want to do. Or in a few words, if there’s a will, there’s a way. I admit, this year, i haven’t given myself enough time to ponder over things like I used to (come’on buddy! I have my OLD age to wonder over what I did on 2009!! No big deal, Miss-i-need-to-think-of-everything!)…with my sis’s marriage, end of school exams, competitives, heart-breaking results, tiresome concellings from everybody who thinks they know better than me(actually, everyone does), awesome and endless outings with friends, new experiences, relationship troubles, new college, moving out of my house, new people, fresher’s welcome blast, death, accidents, student’s riot and all…whew!!!! So many things!!!!! One big eventful year for sure! In short-it was like eating Bertie Bott’s Every Flavoured Bean… : )

Life does have a way of taking away what you really want but giving you what you really need! We are just too thick to understand the difference between what we want and we need. If life had been like a bed of (not roses idiot! That’s so 1950’s!) sleep-well mattresses, then we would have slept on it forever…wouldn’t have waken up to reality! Life is like a strict dad and nature is a gentle loving mother…life punishes us and teaches us lessons-occasionally giving us candies depending on how good we have behaved and nature is there with it’s beauty to help heal a deep wound, a scarred soul..

This year had been a year of extremes….i was way too happy to put it into words as well as I have been in the deepest of despair. I was in the verge of death as well as I have been there to welcome a new life. I have grown up more than I have in the last one and half decades.

I learnt to be a little less heart-strong and a little more practical. A little less cry, a little more responsible. A little less I, a little more us. A little less why, a little more how. Little less ‘try’ and a little more ‘do’. And a little less ‘right now’ and a little more patience.

A little less ‘thinking deeply about everything’ and a little more ‘lets enjoy while it lasts.’

And a lot less ‘I regret’ and a lot more ‘I am proud’.

We can’t expect anything to last, so just do what you want to while you have it and don’t regret, than, letting it go and regretting for the rest of your life.