Yesterday while debating with a friend about people’s right, my best friend reflected that I have changed a lot these last few years…my eye’s widened at this sudden musing and under my surprised glance she said that it’s just that I did a lot of growing up these last few years that it’s sometimes a little difficult for her to relate the person I am today with the person I was some years back…apart from that she didn’t say anything more which made me extra curious, so here I am with the keyboard at my fingertips busily clicking away my thoughts…it’s funny how some mere words can set you thinking…
While setting my thoughts in this direction, the things that come obviously in my mind is that- of course I am not the same person I was before….heck, I am not even the same person I was yesterday-maybe I can be the same in appearance but not in mind, each day brings a new experience, a new moral, a new thing to learn and to teach…hmmm….this writing proves that I have turned a lot philosophical ;-)..I guess it’s an infection people acquire by reading Mitch Albom’s books…
My temper is a little mild now, I am not that hot-headed as I used to be and now my boiling point has raised a bit…..and I have made a regulator for my motor mouth.....previously I had a stuttering habit which after a lot of practice and being made fun of have left me for john with little traces here and there….I learned to make fewer mistakes by developing a habit of ‘planning ahead’…I have learned to do my job in an organized way with the probability of success raised to 0.95…
Previously I used to hate my name Anandeep cause it’s so so rare and people used to tease me as it sounded like a boy’s name and to add a little more bitterness-90% of the people have difficulty pronouncing it…but now I have grown to love it a little bit because it set me apart from others and because of my unique name, no one easily forgets me…if not for me, they remember me for my name (‘I used to know a girl with an uncommon name..’) I thing I wanna make clear is that Anandeep is a name of Punjabi origin (I am a pure bong-mind it!) which can be both a girl’s and a boy’s name.
I was very heart-strong by nature but gradually I got myself synchronized with my mind…I have grown more practical, more responsible, more thorough on whatever task I undertake and more reliable(well a little I guess if not fully…I am still trying!!). I am more open about what I think, what I want and what I need…..
I have learned to distinguish between what’s good for me and what’s bad…what won’t suit me and what will….and I have grown to respect other people’s wishes…I used to be a lot impulsive and dunno…I am still impulsive but not that much..
One odd thing is that I have learned to accept sarcastic as well as harsh criticisms in good will…..I like(hey don’t get fat headed and start criticizing unfairly after reading this :-P ) when people openly say what they don’t like about me so that I can correct myself.
You know it’s a very narcissus topic-once started, it is very hard to stop….and I am stopping because I can’t think of anything else to write….. :-P
So till this folks, feel free to comment irrespective of weather I am close to you or not….and no one will be more hurt than I if you don’t….
PS-well I have also learned to give sentooo…. ;-)
Tootles.
